I wrote recently about saying ‘sorry’ frequently, and how we say these words because they’ve been embedded in us. We have been programmed from childhood to be polite and respectful regardless of our surroundings. We say them without a second thought and sometimes we don’t even mean them. On occasion though, it’s imperative to sit and resonate with the meaning, being thankful for instance; how many times do we repeat the phrase ‘thank you’? The repetitiveness and overuse is insane.
Then comes along a season and one day in particular that reminds us that being thankful is not just a meaningful gesture but should be articulated in our way of life. Gifts are for giving but when we receive in abundance, unwrapped organic and meaningful gifts we should be beyond thankful. More often than none we disregard them because they are taken for granted. Our life no matter how tough it may be, it is a gift. It’s the biggest, most precious gift. As this year comes to a close, I thought long and hard about my accomplishments and how I have tackled this second chance at life. I have so much to be thankful for.
This all may sound mediocre and somewhat mundane but life is a series of rollercoaster rides that has taught me many valuable lessons very late in life. We spend our whole being searching or running towards a goal or wanting success. I had no such expectations from my life. I didn’t know what I wanted or where I was going. I was blindly following and driven by the needs of others. I finally got the chance to choose my own path and make my own decisions and not be controlled by people or society. I got a chance to become ‘Me’ and work on myself.
I learned among the chaos of obtaining the worldly pleasures we must also seek the will to be secure and confident in our own shoes. To be able to realize that not everything in life is a race or a goal and just seeping through to your inner being also is success of another magnitude. These are simple things that require only time and your attention and yet the very things that are the hardest to obtain. I have become content with being the ‘organic’ me and I find nothing wrong with that. What you see is what you get; I have no desire to complicate any longer.
It takes practice to not be moved by your surroundings, letting things go and just letting them be. Having compassion and some empathy for a fellow human and the will to help whenever possible. To remain positive and content. These very traits are what will leave with you when it’s your time to withdraw from this life, everything else will stay, but people will remember you for the person you were. My goal became something of value to myself. I had never thought of life as the story I get to write. To be satisfied with oneself, to accept your past as a lesson and be willing to maneuver this journey with grace and a sense of accomplishment, to be a role model and most importantly, to be empathetic and kind.
I’m thankful today for the experiences that made me the person I have become, thankful that I don’t need a lot to please me and thankful that I give myself the time and energy to work through my flaws because I’m worthy and in return if I can touch just one life with positivity, my existence was worth it. I want to be remembered for the person I am not for my successes or failures but be remembered for my humble heart that gave more than it took. So I thank you, for being a part of my journey, touching it in some way and giving me a chance to give back to my little galaxy.