Time only tells what you leave behind, it shows you how far you have come and how much effort it took for you to accomplish your goals. Time doesn’t stand still for you, it’s a race against it. Forever and ever doesn’t exist, our time here is limited every which way you look at it. I do feel sorry for the arrogant person who thinks he’s immortal. The ones who believe the world revolves around them. I’m not here to negotiate my value with anyone, I know my worth. You don’t always get what you want but I’m not settling. I’m working on things no one can take away from me; my mindset, my character, my peace, dignity. I no longer feel the need to be included, understood or accepted. I’ve learned, whatever isn’t making me happy or is disturbing my peace, whatever it is, whomever it is, doesn’t deserve my time.
Every dream contains a reality, the sooner you get clued in with reality the better off you’ll be. There’s a reason I don’t walk with the crowd, I feel safer alone. I enjoy my own company so you will have to compete with that. I don’t just say I love you to hear it back, I say it so you know where I stand. Yes, I overthink but I’m also the one that over loves. I know manipulation can feel a lot like love. So if you choose to love me, love me for the mad, insecure messed up person I am, not who you want me to be. I’m an acquired taste, I’m not everyone’s cup of tea, but I’m not here to please everyone. Don’t call me perfect, a lie is never a compliment. Don’t make promises either, promises are meant to be broken. I need your word. I don’t warrant the need to control another person, I have no interest to dictate.
Bodies meet all the time, I want a union of the souls and mind. You have to be able to awaken the Sapio in me. I’m not easily flattered and your luxuries don’t interest me, I’m a simple person, seeking simple qualities. I’m here to be appreciated while I’m alive, so don’t bring me flowers when I’m dead, I deserve them now, just like kind words. If you have nothing good to say to me, just don’t speak. I have no energy for arguments, I can kill you with silence. Your degrees and successes do little for me if you lack respect. I don’t need to be told I’m beautiful, I’m an heir to a lineage of beautiful souls, I seek validation from no one. I have my own style so I dress for only me. It’s a dreadfully illusive behavior to think money can buy you class, morals and common sense.
I’ve mastered the art of surviving. I’ve grasped confidence and if that too intimidates you, you should move on.
If you can accept me at my worst, at my best and as I am. I’m here to learn from you, about you, about me from you. I want someone who will ask me randomly what I’m doing, someone who knows what I’m thinking.I want that person to crave my vibe, vibe with my song. I want a matching twisted mind. I seek the soul with an infatuation for my impracticalities. I want someone who will cook for me because I know how to appreciate a good meal. Someone who isn’t afraid to drink out of the same glass. I want to be with someone, who finds me attractive at 10 PM when I’ve exhausted myself, I’ve washed off the day and I’m in my natural state of insanity. I wear my smile the best so I want someone who will never take it off.
Everyone comes with broken pieces, I want someone who isn’t afraid of mine. I’m a disturbed soul, I have the need to keep busy, so if you can calm me, you’ve tapped into a part of my untamed consciousness. I want someone who knows, just knows me; like when I need to be held, because a hug will heal me more than words. I want to be with someone who can just lay with me and listen when I make no sense. Someone who doesn’t need to reply, just to understand. I also want my undisturbed space. I don’t need your explanations, because if you have to explain, it’s already too late, I’m not interested. I listen more than I talk, I observe more than you know.
We all get over things eventually, I don’t want to be in it to get over it. There is nothing worse than meeting the right person at the wrong time. Nothing more hopeless than knowing you could have been magic together. Nothing worse than contemplating what could have been. I don’t live with regrets but from time to time I do ask myself if I should settle, but then there is nothing worse than not knowing your own worth.